5 mins before midnight..i left the room..walked down the corridor to my fav window..and sung to myself..."Happy Birthday to me..Happy Birthday to meee...Happy birthday dear Ridhima...no no...chullu...Happy Birthday to meee...!!!" i felt a loneliness that moment...though i left the room to stay alone..my eyes turned watery..n i said myself i do not want to expect nything grand. i forced a smile...and soon i was smiling effortlessly...:)

It was the most beautiful birthday...pampered like a person...like a baby...like a young girl...I started to weep more than once...it felt like a dream. I have had a phobia of birthdays...of them turning out sad...so i always try to keep up my spirits...i start planning...bothering my friends wid my demands for more than a week b4 my bday...lolz...i asked for a baby tub one year...a cane chair the other...and this time for a huuuuge teddy bear on whom i cud just fall and sleep...lolz...i really wanted each one of this stuff...but i was never serious abt them buying it for me..This time they did...got me a bunny...!!!!!! who wud nt have wept...nything that i mistakenly said i wanted over the past yr...they got it for me...on my birthday! I ate pastries wid a bit of guilt ;) n one of my frnds showered me wid gifts...lol..hand made card..ganpati...all the stuff put in perfect harmony to make me weep!
i guess as m growing...my craving for a good birthday is increasing...God has been good...! it was like subconsciously planning ur own birthday ;)...well there s one more gift i m looking forward too...smthing i want more than the bunny this moment...fingers crossed! Happy Birthday to me till then :)